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My eldest just called highly upset, in tears actually. She like the rest of us is tired of dealing with this divorce.
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Her father is taking both girls to a counseling session tomorrow and she doesn't want to go. She listed several reasons why.
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She rages at me when she's upset. She isn't disrespectful; she just knows her voice will be heard by me. While I understand this, it is getting harder for me to deal with because essentially there isn't anything I can do about it.
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I don't know what to do or say to her anymore. She says she wants to be here and not with him although I get the feeling my home isn't the perfect place to be either. I'm sure I unknowingly contribute to her anguish. I just hope I haven't done something that will resurface later when all this is said and done. I'm dealing with enough fallout between her and her father. I don't want to be blamed for the rift in their relationship. That's a very big fear of mine.
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She got off the phone with me rather abruptly. Her father wanted to talk to her. I'm sure I'll have to pick up the pieces of this weekend come Sunday. I'm so very weary, emotionally run down.
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Things were going along rather smoothly, too smoothly. Today I got a proposal from him via attorneys, a ridiculous one at that. And it looks like her father is going to talk about getting rid of her cat again since she isn't over there to take care of it as much as her sister is. That's right; her sister gets to keep her cat but not her.
GUILT
Go on and blame me for the divorce, I wanted it, I still want it. It's for the best.
GUILTY AS FUCK
She wants to be left alone about it, so do I, believe me so do I.
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